Sunday morning June 4, 2017
Two separate dreamings.
In the first I’m with one of the Kelly boys..and it’s more like Kieran..though in real life it might surprisingly be more like an interchange I've had with Declan. He’s asking me about the sexual interests..and beginning sex life..of a male friend of his. I start to formulate the way that he..Kieran..would have to slowly..incrementally..get into that kind of discussion with his friend. I seem to be advising him to at first clarify his friend’s attitudes..wishes..fears..toward girls..toward the actual girl that his friend is interested in. The approach seems to emulate the subtle..crafted..ways I personally go about encouraging information from my patients on their attitudes..wishes..fears..regarding sex. Remembering now the discussions I had with friends at that age..I contrast it with the seeming paradoxical care I take currently in those explorations..as the snippet fades.
The second dream has me examining the bathtub again. I hear a jet of water running just beneath the porcelain edge of the tub..and then I see and feel a light spray related to that jet. I want to go tell Doris about it..as it is confirmation of what the BH Water Department called us about. But when I see her shortly thereafter..she responds..as she occasionally does in these dreams..that she already knew about it..and it wasn’t my own discovery..as the snippet ends.
Mission Statement
Why do I think I hear
more about the undercurrents
of male sexuality..
a male’s sexuality..
than most others?
Following incredibly closely
the sex lives of dozens..
with an access to
the puzzle pieces..
the puzzling pieces..
I follow a map
that gets obscured
by a host of other
explanations
My hope is that I have
the data..to formulate..
the themes in that map..
that might even elicit
from females..
an ‘hmm..I didn’t
know about that’
But I moreover hope that
a mapping..would further influence
the understanding of their sex
with the men that I know..
and those that meet me
for the first time
